When you have a very public nervous breakdown, it makes you not want to go out in public again for a long time.  Unfortunately, there are strict limits on how long a person in my situation can stay out of public.

The last time I felt publicly humiliated and nevertheless found myself having to go out in public before I was technically ready to, I took a hiatus from the internet instead.  I wanted some privacy.  I had to retreat from someplace, even if it didn’t make any sense.

It’s getting harder to find a corner of the universe where I can enjoy being alone.  I always find myself getting lonely.  But when I put myself out there in real life, I regret it.

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